visser: (Sabia and Loghain: Perfect Pair of NUTTE)
Cranky Ass Hellhound Thing ([personal profile] visser) wrote in [community profile] peopleofthedas 2011-01-05 10:02 am (UTC)

Re: Way OT, but it's my post

It is, and it isn't. I admit, I sometimes vent my frustrations of real life through the game. I myself had a "knight in shining armor" who betrayed me by disappearing without a trace when I joined the Navy to support the both of us, and I did go off the deep end in my attempts to try to rectify what he'd done, because he was my first real love, my first lover, and my fiancee.

It took me years to come to terms with it, but I never got official closure, as I still have no idea what happened to him. I got at least a sense of informal closure by finishing that campaign with that particular character of mine. Who needs therapy? (I kid, I did see a professional and it helped, but silly enough, that particular campaign did things for me that the therapy didn't.)

I ended that campaign in October 2009, and it was an...odd feeling, it really was. I had forgiven him for hurting me, but never forgave myself for the people I hurt. After seeing my own actions through a different set of eyes, and seeing how people were affected by them (albeit killing werewolves and taking the side of the corrupt instead of shunning friends and family) I felt like I could forgive myself, and I did. While I still go back and play her on different saves, and do things slightly differently, I don't change much. I left Sabia in camp to think about everything. It's part of the reason I felt the need to write her story, because it helps.

AANNND I'm done making you feel awkward XD

It is 3:30, but I'm a night owl and work the night shift at work- i go to bed at 6Am and work from 4 to 12am. =3

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